How are you doing?

I recently saw a post that essentially said that if you are well adjusted individual and you are doing just fine given all the insanity that is going on in this nation currently, that you should really have your head checked.

How are you doing? If you ask me that question, lately, I have a pause. I’m deciding if I share how I’m really doing (if I think you want to really know), or if I just do the polite thing and say “I’m fine.”

I’m not fine though. And I don’t think most people are fine. Not the folks I have been talking with anyway. In fact I’ve yet to meet anyone who is actually fine. We’re all broken. And sometime worse. But are we willing to admit that and be vulnerable with people and say that we broken, or worse? Are we willing to make that kind of investment in a relationship? It might take some time and that might mess with our schedules.

I’m not fine. I’ve been dealing with long haul COVID symptoms of fatigue that comes and goes, and fuzzy brain that hits at inconvenient times, and headaches that often turn to migraines that pretty much incapacitate me from doing anything until they pass. There’s no rhyme or reason for when these things hit me. Some days are better than others. It seems that I take a couple of steps forward and then a few steps back.

I’m also not fine because of existential questioning of what the hell is going on in the world. Seriously. I’m a person who is very visionary and sees how things connect with one another. I am definitely not a compartmentalized thinker —…