I don’t like feeling this way

If you are like most people, you are probably silently suffering. I figured that the case anyway. I don’t think the suffering is uncommon. In fact I think it the norm for most people. The suffering can be caused by a variety of things, and usually multiple things all at once.

I say silently suffering because I don’t think most people like to admit that they are suffering. Maybe they think it comes off as weak or something like that. Our culture has a firm hold on us insisting that we just suck it up. I don’t know how healthy that is though. At what point do we say, stop sucking it up and be honest with yourself and others?

Since when was suffering in silence and solitude a virtue? It’s not. It’s a coping mechanism, and not a good one at that.

Let’s call the thing what it is — we are all suffering in some way. I am suffering. There — I said it.

For me suffering looks/feels like something just sitting in the pit of my stomach that don’t feel “normal” — whatever that is. It’s taking on all the crap feelings of those around me. It’s looking at the insanity of the world and saying “doesn’t anyone else see how insane this is???” Yes, I know there are others who see it as well. But there are times when I just have to wonder — if others see the insanity, why does it persist? Why don’t we do something to put a stop to the insanity?

I suffer when I read the news and see the disregard and devaluing of people.