I’m struggling a bit today…

I’m struggling a bit today with humanity. I’m struggling with watching people repeat the same mistakes and commit the same abuses that have been going on for centuries and not learning from the mistakes of the past. I’m struggling with all the attempts, efforts, and force that is used throughout history to maintain abusive systems that degrade fellow humans in a variety of ways. I’m struggling with the hypocrisy of claiming to follow Jesus, and then either completely ignoring what that means in practical sense, or contradicting so much of what Jesus calls on followers to do and how to be. I’m struggling with the addiction to toxic individualism and how destructive it is. I’m struggling with “don’t tell me what to do” attitudes. I’m struggling with the idols that so many people actually worship but would never claim to worship.

Internally I struggle with this weird habit I have to knowing that news and social media can be really destructive, yet for some reason continue to be drawn to them far too often. What is it that I gain from these things? A sense of knowing what is going on? A certain set of feelings? A feeling of how right I am compared to other people? Probably all that and plenty of other things that go below the surface.

Internally I struggle with seeing certain public figures who are very vocal in their stubbornness and resistance to anything that would possibly be a benefit to others. I struggle with it because I see parts of myself that I don’t like in them. Parts that I know are dangerous in myself. I’ve been there and…