Life is complicated in so many ways.

As for the idea that you are extreme in beliefs - I would disagree with that. You sound more authentic in what you are saying than anything else.

At any rate, thanks again for your writing and sharing your struggles. I look forward to reading more. And thank you for the compliment of being the exception. There are plenty of Christians in this country that cause me to question whether I actually worship the same God as them. And I'm not convinced that the answer is yes.